Had a really deep thought last weekend about 'What would people think when someone said they're different?'

Well, I posted this thought into my facebook but only 2 friends of mine replied and both of them shared the same thought as me. Our answer was 'we're gifted'.

The reason why I would think so, instead of searching which part of me that is a geek/weirdo/awkward, is simply because I do dare to be different. And to me being different means you're able to see what others are unable to see.

Besides, I am always being stamped 'different' many times, e.g:
1. My palms are always sweaty.
2. I am very shy/less talkative/a thinkier
3. I portray an unconventionally suave engineer
4. I am soft spoken yet stubborn

... last but not least ... The optimistic always see opportunity in a problem while the pessimistic always see problem in an opportunity.

How many of us that does even bother to give ourselves a birthday present? At least I am one of them who bother! =))

And I've bought a few advance birthday present for myself from my last BKK trip. Eventhough it wasn't the super duper posh de items, I'm still uber happiez! OK, these are my presents:

1. Gucci Pattern iPhone casing
2. ELLE tote bag
3. a pair of Shoes
4. an underwear =p

I tink tat's all besides the happiness :)

I think I'm suffering from a sleep deprived ler... Since last saturday, I didn't get enough sleep which is supposed to be 8 hours a day. Saturday, I woke up at around 1pm *i tink* before having my brunch ...... =)) Soon after that, lazily ..... I walked over to CT to return the CD I borrowed from FF ... but alas! the moment I stepped into the building .... the fire alarm was activated! The security told me and another peeps to wait for approx. 30mins ...... :(

I had an appt with my PT at FF MW in 45 mins and he wanted me to wait for 30mins? haiz haiz ..... jialat jialat... But at the end I just left without returning the CD... =p wekekekeke

That PT session was the last one for the free session .... but it is quite light compared to the previous two. Basically, just do the treadmill, bicep&tricep resistance training, abs training, and conditioning .... and ehm ehm ... the PT offered the real PT service in which actually being sold per package in denomination of 5, 11, 20, or 30 with a certain expiry date.

The price is a really really kiasi lang price.... wakakaka =)) close to $850 for 11 session.... so ex rite?

Well, I'm not saying no but neither will I say yes for PT .. as for now.=))

Then soon after I finish with my training ... I head to city hall meeting my flat mates before we all cabut to Nite Safari....

It was fun! and smelly~ reached home arnd 2am in the morning ..... with puffy eyes, ofcoz!~

Sunday morning was supposedly an enjoyable ride of Singapore Flyer .... but alas!! we woke up a bit late so unable to catch the free ticket ... huhuhuhu.... So, we head up to Popeye's to had our brunch .... big brunch to be exact....

Finished with that, we went to Marina Square to buy tic for Angel & Demon *nice movie* and walk walk .... till we bumped into URA's exhibition .... haha ... where my flatmate kena catch to go on stage ... with her zipper open! wakakakaka =))

Lastly, after finished catching the movie... we headed to church for sunday service... then dinner at nearby Kopitiam where I had my green curry .... *yummy yummy*

then go shopping ..... and headed home for laundrying and cleaning!!

now ...... I'm sleep deprived!

Weeeee...... today bozz treat me & my team mates eat crab at somewhere arnd Simei. But that's not the point lo... We went out for lunch with his baby bulat, Sebastian! weee ... he is so cute lei... here's our pic together taken by my 大师姐 :)

/me and Sebastian (Baby Bulat)

When the thing gets tough, the tough gets going! I have to be tough ..... Yosh!

Yippie!!! another new year comin .... should I be happie? I think I should! Nevertheless, I've made my own resolution for this new year :o

Started my new job today :) feels very 爽...

Well, firstly, it is because of my window seat. Heard from my colleague that the window seat is actually only for seniors... But, I think for my case maybe they just ran out of seats! haha ... count me lucky then :)

Secondly, I enjoyed the environment ... in which I would rate it a lot better than my prev employer which was super suck. I can't say anything about my new colleagues as yet (coz I've just started!) but it is more chinese environment ... similar to my 1st employer that I prefer :)

Thirdly, the project(s) itself ... I think the project that they've assigned to me is good ... in a sense that it could boost my resume and a good exposure :)

Okiez ... shall talk about it again later! Meanwhile, here's an artist impression of the project I'm working on ...

Wow .... a real thing happened first time in my life. so far! Hmm, I guess everyone know what happened back then in 1998 and 2001. It's recurring again! siao liao...

Went for my project meeting today with Lippo Group .... alas! we were told that this is the last meeting for this project coz it's gonna be shelved! wow! The impact of the crisis starts taking it's place liao... 吓死人!

Anyway ... move forward .... I'll be having a window seat!!! again!!! Yay!!!!

我已丢了那一封信就觉得轻松多了。。。

关系。。其实关系，它有几种的？不过，无论如何，基本上它需要同样的感情。

我觉得一个好关系真需要两样东西。。。就是“信任”和“尊敬”。

没有了这两样东西，不管是男女关系，朋友关系，亲戚关系，或者老板-工人的关系，都不成。

如果对方有做了错，必须原谅吗？已经原谅的话也不能完全恢复从前。。那该怎么办？有没有办法改建的？

看来。。时候已到了，我该走了。

妈...真得很想念你的.

你为什么怎么早就留我一个人生活呢....

如果你还健康的活着,那可多好呢....

其实,你并没有离开我,只是搬到天堂去,对吗?

你永远还在我记忆中 =))

Wooohooo .... today is my birthday! yep I'm officially 1 year older from today onward :)

I only have 1 wish .... which is .... I wish all my wishes come true! lol! very greedy ;p

My only wish is actually impossible to achive ... I wish I could spend my birthday with my mum once again ... even for one last time only, it will make my day for the whole year!

Oh well ... Happy Birthday to me, myself, and I!!! hehe... I've got lotsa gift for myself liao =))

我应该相信人家对我怎样或着对我说什么吗？这世界上能找到我完全可以相信的人吗？=.=" 真traumatic了。

哎呀！我这个人。。真的不了解自己想要得是什么。。skali 要A, 有时要B, 到最后就讲要C。:=((

真讨厌我的indecisiveness。。sigh! 要继续努力改变自己!! yosh!

明天开始，我会自己拿主意 =))

Have you all feel envy to others before? Is it good or bad? Is it the same as being greedy or jealous? Actually what's the definition of envy ....

Envy is the pain or frustration caused by another person having something that one does not have oneself.

Jealous is the fear of losing something that one possesses to another person (a loved one in the prototypical form).

Greedy is excessively desirous of acquiring or possessing, especially wishing to possess more than what one needs or deserves.

So ... I guess wat I really feel is ..... Envy =.="

I dunno that I will have such comments from my immediate supervisor lei .. He said I'm always like to do things on my own ... whcih is true! I told him I like to keep things within my reach and if possible I'll do things by myself. The reason being is I dont like to bother people as much as I dont like people to bother me. That's all .. and I guess it's simple enough!

He also mentioned that it might be good if I work in pair, in which I disagree with him. I think it will not be good to share one pie for two. I .. juz dun like this idea at all lor ...

*shakes head*

The first day of September lai liao... meaning my birthday will be coming over soon too!!! wekeke..... :) Dunno should be happy or sad liao .. lol!

This month ah ~~ so many people having their birthday leh ... Hope that I got to eat a piece of their cake la ;p

Anyway, I've tried to get along with colleagues but I guess to no avail :( so sad .... hiks .... nvm! I'll keep on trying la ... :)

I think I'm those people who likes to postpone everything until last minute one .... hiks .. How I wish I got the courage to face people ... coz in front of certain people I will feel presurised and become very malu instead of saying wat I need to say! sigh .....

Am I problematic? I don't think so lei .... but yeah, everybody got their own definition of problematic and their own point of view :) So ... for those who think I'm problematic ... think again yah!! coz u guys are not in my shoes!

It's true that I've got lotsa problem lately, be it personally or officialy. Sigh! but wat can I do ... Can only try to settle those problem one by one.

Aarghh ... lately I cant fulfill my own "to-do list"!! die la ... how ar ... So far, I always make a to do list for each project and I'll tick it off after I finished it. But seems like nowadays I tick lesser and lesser items lor... how ar .... si liao liao ... either my task is too big or I'm getting slower ... =(

Today got surprised lei .. its my first time seeing my bozz wearing jacket! I can tell that he isn't in a good condition loh ... well, good thing is he become calmer and *unwillingly* become a better listener :P Anyway, get better soon bozz! wakaka ...

I'd better sleep for now lei ... or else tomorrow cannot wake up lagi jialat! Tomorrow got meeting at 9am lei ... Those ppl why pick such a early time to meet ah~~~~

Some input that some friends has been telling me is that .... I trust people easily.

true? I tink its true lo ... I always never think of people bad side leh ... not until i kena stab by them. Then now I rili dunno which are good people which are bad people. For example, even my own auntie oso lied to me, say borrow money later pay in May .... see now? until August also havent paid. cibai ~~~

Lately, I have been in a argument with someone. The more I hate her, the more often I bump into her!!! Before this incident I had NEVER bump into her ... not even once for more than 1.5 years of my working time!!! serious!!

难道。。。 是不是真的，越恨月有缘分?!?! wa piang e ~~~~

I'm craving for sumthin sweet at the moment leh .... fufufufu ... like cake lar, choco lar, candy lar, desert lar ... wakaka ...

I am just wondering whats the main reason of ppl writing blog ah.... diary? show off? or wat leh ...? I, myself, oso dunno hehe ... just write it off .. maybe more like a diary but not private one ...

wa piangz~~ seems like lately my life is all about food lei ....

星期四庆祝我辞职的同事。我们去龙门餐厅在Harbourfront Centre，就是ala carte buffet啦。不算是好吃的！大概五分之二这样子。。便吃便说笑话。。真的很开心啊。

刚才呢。。去出烧烤在ECP。。很好玩的！会看到其他人，跟他们在联络。。觉得很好 :) 还省下很多的因为我们吃不完。。重重都吃饱了，那就打包咯！呵呵。。

希望我的人生会快快乐乐的过下去！

讲话很直接的人到底是好还是不好的？有些朋友说我讲话太不礼貌，有些说太直接，有些说开玩笑而已。。我自己呢？我想我是有点不礼貌的开玩笑 :P